“Arresting, heartbreaking, and meditative.”—ALA Booklist (starred review)
“Hand this to anyone trying their best wobbling through the precarious and precious parts of life.”—Bulletin of the Center for Children’s Books (starred review)
“An intriguing dynamic and a twist on the typical romance arc.”—Kirkus Reviews
Struggling to balance the expectations of her immigrant mother with her own deep ambivalence about her place in the world, seventeen-year-old Ocean Sun takes her savings and goes off the grid. A haunting and romantic novel about family, friendship, philosophy, fitting in, and love from Amy Zhang, the acclaimed author of Falling into Place and This Is Where the World Ends.
Ocean Sun has always felt an enormous pressure to succeed. After struggling with depression during her senior year of high school, Ocean moves to New York City, where she has been accepted at a prestigious university. But Ocean feels so emotionally raw and unmoored (and uncertain about what is real and what is not) that she decides to defer and live off her savings until she can get herself together. She also decides not to tell her mother (whom she loves very much but doesn’t want to disappoint) that she is deferring—at least until she absolutely must.
In New York, Ocean moves into an apartment with Georgie and Tashya, two strangers who soon become friends, and gets a job tutoring. She also meets a boy—Constantine Brave (a name that makes her laugh)—late one night on the subway. Constant is a fellow student and a graffiti artist, and Constant and Ocean soon start corresponding via Google Docs—they discuss physics, philosophy, art, literature, and love. But everything falls apart when Ocean goes home for Thanksgiving, Constant reveals his true character, Georgie and Tashya break up, and the police get involved.
Ocean, Constant, Georgie, and Tashya are all cartographers—mapping out their futures, their dreams, and their paths toward adulthood in this stunning and heartbreaking novel about finding the strength to control your own destiny. For fans of Nina LaCour’s We Are Okay and Daniel Nayeri’s Everything Sad Is Untrue.
Their lives are a map of contradictions—love and loneliness, truth and illusion, art and vandalism.
- A Raw and Honest Mental Health Story: Ocean grapples with depression and the pressure to succeed, navigating a world where she’s not sure what’s real—or if she wants to be in it at all.
- An Unconventional NYC Romance: After a late-night subway encounter, Ocean falls for Constantine, a mysterious graffiti artist. Their relationship unfolds not in texts, but in a shared Google Doc filled with debates on philosophy, art, and love.
- A Powerful Found Family: While hiding her secret life from her family, Ocean finds a new one in her roommates, Georgie and Tashya, whose own messy, heartfelt bond becomes her anchor.
- Deeply Philosophical Fiction: This isn’t just a love story; it’s an exploration of what it means to be alive, tackling questions of free will, reality, and language with nods to Kierkegaard and Camus.
