My Heart and Other Black Holes

A stunning novel about the transformative power of love, perfect for fans of 13 Reasons Why by Jay Asher.

Sixteen-year-old physics nerd Aysel is obsessed with plotting her own death. With a mother who can barely look at her without wincing, classmates who whisper behind her back, and a father whose violent crime rocked her small town, Aysel is ready to turn her potential energy into nothingness.

There’s only one problem: she’s not sure she has the courage to do it alone. But once she discovers a website with a section called Suicide Partners, Aysel’s convinced she’s found her solution—Roman, a teenage boy who’s haunted by a family tragedy, is looking for a partner.

Even though Aysel and Roman have nothing in common, they slowly start to fill in each other’s broken lives. But as their suicide pact becomes more concrete, Aysel begins to question whether she really wants to go through with it. Ultimately, she must choose between wanting to die or trying to convince Roman to live so they can discover the potential of their energy together.

What happens when your partner in death becomes your only reason to live?

• Dark Romance: Aysel and Roman agree to be partners—in suicide. But as their final day approaches, their pact becomes complicated by an unexpected and powerful connection.
• Mental Health Fiction: An unflinching, compassionate, and ultimately hopeful exploration of depression, grief, and the difficult choice to live.
• Grief and Guilt: She’s haunted by her father’s violent past; he’s shattered by a family tragedy he blames himself for. Together, they might be the only ones who can understand.
• Perfect for Fans of Heart-Wrenching YA: For readers who love the raw emotion of Jennifer Niven’s All the Bright Places and the poignant questions of 13 Reasons Why.